γνῶθι σαυτόν

It’s 1AM/I’m eating tofu/I’m seeing my psychiatrist today.

Anonymous asked: are you bi? have you ever been with a girl before?

I’m not bi nor straight nor gay nor nothing! Yes, I have. 

Last night was fun! True Vibenation’s album launch provided me with an almost perfect cure to my suicidal mentality earlier in the evening (which unfortunately came back to haunt me later on), and despite feeling totally inadequate to all of Tuka’s artist/musician/poet/rapper friends, the energy in that rainbow dungeon of a venue was really beautiful, out of this world.. Ah, but this may well have been due to the fact that I was also incredibly drunk.

Anonymous asked: Where are you from?

Sydney, Australia.

I slept the winter daylight away and woke up wanting to kill myself.

Anonymous asked: you seem happier now than you're away from andy and with tuka. how are things going?

I’m happier in some respect. My relationship with Tuka is dazzlingly pure as opposed to everything that Andy and I created together in that destruction we dared call love. I do miss him though, and it makes me sad that I can’t help him anymore. He’s turned back to alcoholism and I’m scared he’s going to die. Aside from that, things are going well. Love and light. 

Anonymous asked: I was diagnosed with anorexia nervosa and was admitted to an inpatient clinic and hour and a half from my home. Right now, I'm still living there, and I'm almost in my healthy weight range. I'm feeling extremely insecure about myself and I feel as though I'm kind of in "relapse mode" because I don't think I'm going to be able to go home and maintain my healthy weight. I've been here for five weeks as of today. I want to go home but I don't want this to be an endless spiral. What should I do?

I love you. Despite your insecurities, the fact that you have almost reached a healthy weight range is a sign that things are moving forward for you. Have faith in that. Don’t you dare ever forget it either! I think it’s important that you leave the clinic only when you feel ready. Being ready doesn’t necessarily mean you’ll walk out of there cured into perfection for the rest of your life. I mean, I resumed much of my destructive behaviour on my first night out of hospital. The sense of relapse was unbearable, but deep down I understood that a certain strength existed within me that was going to fight back this time round. That’s all there is to it. You win some, you lose some, but at the end of the day you just have to keep on fighting. Fight for your health, for your freedom of Self.. and always keep your loved ones in mind. Some people reach a point where they grow so accustomed to clinical life, that they feel they can’t leave anymore. Please don’t let this happen to you. I love you, stranger. I have so much faith in you. 

P.S. You say you don’t want this to be an endless spiral.. I say, that’s exactly what life is - an endless spiral. You just have to ride it the right way. Namaste! <3

Today’s buys

The Illustrated Rumi: A Treasury of Wisdom from the Poet of the Soul

Middlesex by Jeffrey Eugenides

The Elephant Vanishes by Haruki Murakami

So despite feeling like some jerk cat has taken it upon himself to hurt me from the inside of my uterus.. I am very happy indeed. Namaste, lovers! 

I’m having some serious pussy cravings over here. I can’t stop thinking about pussy.