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Anonymous asked: Sly I went on a bit of an MDMA bing on the weekend and now I want to rip my skin off. I feel like a worthless being and I'm so very sad even though I know it's probably just a hormonal imbalance :(

Oh, baby.. I’m so sorry to hear you’re feeling this way. It’s not so much a hormonal imbalance as a basic chemical one. A decent MDMA binge can obliterate most of the serotonin stores in your brain; the severe depletion is what makes you feel so overwhelmingly depressed. It’ll take a couple of weeks before you can get it back to a healthy level again :( and I know it sucks and sadness can be totally scary and stuff, but I promise you ~this too shall pass~ if you just look after yourself in the meantime. Eat a rainbow of fruit and vegetables and nuts and legumes and super-foods every day, make yourself some tasty green smoothies, drink lots of water and herbal teas, spend some time out in the sun, in water, amidst a forest full of trees.. Rise early and rest. Smile even when you don’t want to. Meditate. You need to detoxify yourself is all. Good luck. Sending infinite love/light beams your way. <3

Anonymous asked: Did you ever consider weed might be part of your mood problems? I'm not trying to be rude, I'm just speaking from personal experience. It is a depressant after all

Yes, I have considered this, but I don’t necessarily think it to be true. I think my “mood problems” (borderline personality disorder) are largely due to early experiences of sexual abuse and childhood trauma, and a genetic predisposition to mental illness. This subsequently led to depression, drug abuse, and an eating disorder throughout my teen years.. Of course, the drugs (ecstasy/MDMA, speed, acid, shrooms, ketamine, nitrous, 2C-E, 2C-B, opiates, cocaine, among others..) certainly didn’t help my case, but weed has benefited me more than it hasn’t, hence, I wouldn’t call it a problem. I’m healthy and (relatively) happy. Everything in balance, right? Namaste :)

violet-psychofluid asked: Would it be inappropriate to ask what you overdosed on? I'm just curious. I've had friends overdose, and it is terrifying but slightly fascinating to me.

Hey, it’s okay to be curious :) It was a combination of ecstasy and acid, two hits of each, that did me over that day. People say you can’t overdose off either of these drugs and I won’t deny them that truth, but I did foolishly make my purchase off a complete stranger so I can’t actually be sure of what I took. Terrifying and fascinating is a perfect way to describe my experience. Love and light!

Anonymous asked: Have you ever experienced an out-of-body experience? I don't believe I've ever had an OBE before but I've definitely felt a strange sensation of my body trying to lift but it didn't succeed. I would love to experience it without using drugs or dehydrating myself. If you've experienced this, do you have any advice on achieving one?

I’ve had one out-of-body experience. I overdosed at a festival, lost consciousness and stopped breathing.. and somehow witnessed my revival whilst floating around the Emergency Room ceiling. I don’t have any advice for you on achieving one because mine was an accident. Although, I’d say meditation is probably the best way to go about it. Love and light. 

Anonymous asked: what is the worst thing you've ever done?

Gosh, umm.. I was dealing ecstasy when I was like, 14 or 15 years old. I don’t know why or how or what the fuck was going through my head at the time that made me think it was okay. It all seems so weird and wrong to me now. My parents found out and that was heartbreaking for them. What if I killed someone by selling them a bad pill? Yeah, I think that’s probably the worst thing I’ve ever done. 

Anonymous asked: did you used to do pharmaceuticals? recreationally i mean

Yes, I did, and how boring it was of me..

Anonymous asked: i think it's really interesting that you don't take drugs anymore. considering your past it could've gone the other way and you'd be lying in a gutter with a syringe in your arm right now. you're still only nineteen and you've come so far! i'm proud of you

Ha! Thank god I didn’t go the other way then. Love and light.

Anonymous asked: How often do you take drugs?

I smoke small amounts of weed most days.. but I don’t take drugs anymore.